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1、TED演讲抑郁,我们各自隐藏的秘密I felt a Funeral, in my Brain, and Mourners to and fro kept treading - treading - till it seemed that Sense was breaking through - And when they all were seated, a Service, like a Drum - kept beating - beating - till I thought my Mind was going numb - And then I heard them lift a Bo

2、x and creak across my Soul with those same Boots of Lead, again, then Space - began to toll, As all the Heavens were a Bell, and Being, but an Ear, and I, and Silence, some strange Race, wrecked, solitary, here - And then a Plank in Reason, broke, and I fell down and down - and hit a World, at every

3、 plunge, and Finished knowing - then“我的脑海中，进行着一场葬礼，悼念者络绎不绝不停的走着，踩踏着直到仪式的氛围 渐浓当所有人入座仪式开始，敲鼓的声音繁重有力，敲打着，敲打着直到我的意识变 得麻木我听见他们抬起棺材繁重的脚步，摇摇晃晃我的灵魂，吱呀作响四周，丧钟 响起天堂，就像一个铃铛存在，那么就是一只耳朵安静的我，如同异类在此孤独，在 此腐朽失去依靠，理性开始倒塌我从高处坠落跌入一个又一个世界终于，看清01:11We know depression through metaphors. Emily Dickinson was able to convey

4、it in language, Goya in an image. Half the purpose of art is to describe such iconic states.我们能够在一些文学作品中看到抑郁的影子艾米莉迪金森（美国十九世纪著名女诗人）通 过诗歌诠释它戈雅（西班牙画家）通过绘画表达许多艺术作品产生的初衷就是为了表达 这充满象征意义的状态01:26As for me, I had always thought myself tough, one of the people who could survive if d been sent to a concentratio

5、n camp.就我自己来说,我一度认为自己非常坚强认为自己是那一类即使被送去集中营也能够存活 下来的人01:35In 1991, I had a series of losses. My mother died, a relationship d been in ended, I moved back to the United States from some years abroad, and I got through all of those experiences intact.1991年，我经历了一连串的不幸母亲去世爱情终结我也在几年的海外生活之后回到了 美国我在经历了这一切之后依

6、旧安然无恙01:49But in 1994, three years later, I found myself losing interest in almost everything. I didnt want to do any of the things I had previously wanted to do, and I didnt know why. The opposite of depression is not happiness, but vitality. And it was vitality that seemed to seep away from me in

7、that moment. Everything there was to do seemed like too much work. I would come home and I would see the red light flashing on my answering machine, and instead of being thrilled to hear from my friends, I would think, What a lot of people that is to have to call back. Or I would decide I should hav

8、e lunch, and then I would think, but d have to get the food out and put it on a plate and cut it up and chew it and swallow it, and it felt to me like the Stations of the Cross.然而在1994年，也就是三年之后 我突然发现自己对几乎所有的情况都失去了兴趣 甚至不 愿意去做那些 我曾经很想去做的情况 我不明白这是为什么抑郁的反面 并非快乐，而是活 力而正是这样的活力大概就在那段时间从我的身体中慢慢消失了所有需要完成的情况

9、都感受那么烦恼回到家的时候 看着电话留言机上闪烁的红灯 我不但不可能由于听到朋友 们的声音感到兴奋反而会想怎么有这么多人等我回电话有的时候该吃午饭了我却开始 想，我还得把食物拿出来放到盘子里得切，得嚼，得咽让我感受就像耶稣受难一样 02:44And one of the things that often gets lost in discussions of depression is that you know its ridiculous. You know its ridiculous while youre experiencing it. You know that most pe

10、ople manage to listen to their messages and eat lunch and organize themselves to take a shower and go out the front door and that its not a big deal, and yet you are nonetheless in its grip and you are unable to figure out any way around it. And so I began to feel myself doing less and thinking less

11、 and feeling less. It was a kind of nullity.人们在谈论抑郁时 经常忽略了一点 那就是你明白这一切都很荒谬 即使你正处在抑郁之 中，你也明白这一切都很荒谬你明白多数人都能够让自己去听语音留言，去吃午餐紧接 着让自己冲个澡 然后出门你明白这根本不是什么大不了的情况 然而你已经被它掌控同 时无法找到任何解决的方式因此我开始感到自己情况做得越来越少思考得越来越少感知 得越来越少就好像整个人已经没什么价值了03:21And then the anxiety set in. If you told me that d have to be depressed f

12、or the next month, I would say, As long I know itll be over in November, I can do it. But if you said to me, You have to have acute anxiety for the next month, I would rather slit my wrist than go through it. It was the feeling all the time like that feeling you have if youre walking and you slip or

13、 trip and the ground is rushing up at you, but instead of lasting half a second, the way that does, it lasted for six months. Its a sensation of being afraid all the time but not even knowing what it is that youre afraid of. And it was at that point that I began to think that it was just too painful

14、 to be alive, and that the only reason not to kill oneself was so as not to hurt other people.紧接着焦虑就来了假如你告诉我我会在接下来的一个月里一直抑郁我会说，“只要一个 月之后不抑郁了我就能够同意。”但假如你告诉我“你会在接下来的一个月里严重焦 虑。”那么我宁可割腕也不愿意忍耐这是一种持续的感受就好像你走在路上滑倒了或者 者绊倒了地面猛冲向你的感受但这种感受不是半秒钟而是持续6个月这是一种时时刻 刻感到惧怕却不明白自己在惧怕什么的感受 就在那时我开始想 活着太痛苦了人不自杀 的唯一原因是由于不想伤害

15、身边的人04:08And finally one day, I woke up and I thought perhaps d had a stroke, because I lay in bed completely frozen, looking at the telephone, thinking, Something is wrong and I should call for help, and I couldnt reach out my arm and pick up the phone and dial. And finally, after four full hours o

16、f my lying and staring at it, the phone rang, and somehow I managed to pick it up, and it was my father, and I said, lTm in serious trouble. We need to do something. 终于有一天，我醒来的时候我觉得我可能中风了由于我躺在床上整个人是完全僵硬的我 看着电话，心想“不好了，我该打电话求助。”但我没办法伸出手去没有办法拿到电话 来拨号终于，在我躺在那盯着电话整整四小时之后电话铃响了我不记得自己怎么拿到的 电话是我父亲打来的我说，“我现在遇到大烦恼了，我们务必做点什么。”04:40The next day I started with the medications and the therapy. And I also started reckon